Muh, I had such a boring day. I got up and exercised, and did a pretty good job, although I didn't burn as many calories on the tredmill as I'd hoped. D:

Then I went and sat at a book store and drank tea for five hours, went home, binged my little heart out AGAIN (although the exercise saved me) and then sat around some more before getting dragged to a stupid Drake Bell concert which my sister wouldn't let me leave.

So I snuck away. :p Bitch.

I hope I have enough time for a workout tomorrow before we leave, but I doubt I will. Maybe a quick one if I pack tonight. I'm going to miss that ellyptical machine so bad. Maybe I can get my parents to take me to their health club and use the one there. I'm sure they'd like it if I did.

Annnnd I forgot my happy pills today, which is probably why I had no tolerance for that concert. I didn't really want to take the 60mg anyways.

Gah, I need to weigh myself and see how I'm doing!

S.

Okay, so I'm updating in the middle of the day because I don't know if I'll be able to get on my aunt's computer later without people getting pissed. So, I'm in the lodge right now on their (hopefully) free internet, which is right next to the gym, where I just worked out.

So, today I've already done 40 minutes of exercise. I burned over 350 calories already, and when I'm done with this I'll get in the pool for a half an hour. So, I'm really excited, since I haven't eaten yet today, and I'm thinking that if I stay on my own or take a nap or something I may be able to get away with only dinner. Hooray!

My face has gotten a little thinner, even though I'm still a total fatty. I've just been thinking about wearing miniskirts and bikinis and tank tops this summer and that keeps my fat-ass impulses in check. Kind of.

I'm still sort of beating myself up about that fricking pie I had yesterday. I mean, I didn't have to eat all of that. From now on, I will no longer eat the crusts of things at the very least.

Mm, so, not much else to say, because not much else has happened yet. I have to hurry this up or I'm afraid I won't be able to swim as much as I'd like.

Bye!

S. 

Later Update:

I didn't want to be a loser and make another journal entry, but I'm bored so I figured I could update the rest of the day.

So, I swam in the pool after I got off the computer, and it was awesome. I was in there for an hour, and for the last half hour I had it all to myself. My workout burned enough calories that I only had 208 even though I binged around 4:30 today. Ick.

But tomorrow's a better day and I'm convinced it will be better!

AF and I went shopping in downtown Steamboat, and I totally hit the jackpot at this one store. On the 50% off rack, I found a skiing gladiators shirt for, like, $9.50, and a trucker hat for $7ish. Then, I spent the greatest $12 of my life on a LAMBCHOP stuffed animal. I. LOVE. LAMBCHOP. It was my favorite show as a child. It was the show that was playing when my little brother pulled our old black and white t.v. down on top of his face. xD That t.v. was so cool. It had antennae and dials and shit. 

Blah, dinner was okay, I guess. It was pasta and sausage and pork chops. D: I didn't eat a full plate though, because honestly I was full from a yogurt I had had earlier.

My cousin won't lay off though. She's going skiing tomorrow so I won't have to deal with her. It's like, when we went shopping together while everyone else was skiing, she was cool, and nice, and not as bitchy. But with BR and J around, she just kept turning all this stupid little shit into rude faux-pas.

ARG.

Whatever, I'm going to go to a pretentious little bookstore tomorrow and drink tea and coffee until I went myself. They have Fight Club there, although I'll probably bring Choke along with me.

I'm sad because I can't go to therapy on Monday. It was supposed to be my first week with this new group, and I wanted to meet all the other girls, but my plane is getting back way too late. 

But, now I am going to list reasons why my life is good.

My parents totally spoil me. My mom said she'd let me charge a mani or pedi while I'm here, although I don't think I will.

Really, everyone in my family spoils me, which is attested by the fact that I'm on a ski trip in freaking Steamboat, Colorado, most expensive place on Earth. I'm greatful, though, really I am. I love being here and wish I could stay longer. 

I had a fun time shopping, and the shuttle lady picked us up from the Safeway early in a van that we had all to ourselves, and AF was nice to me during that time. I even made her laugh a bit, which was nice.

God, this is long, but I'm writing it mainly for my own gratification.

Anyways. BR will probably be here soon, so I'm going to post this and then get off livejournal, so she doesn't see me on here and think I'm a queer.

'Night.

S.

 Haven't posted in a few days, and can't remember if I said I'm back yet. Well, I am. Comcast was down yesterday, both B and R were having problems with it as well, and they live in Fo'Po.

I need to shower, so this is just a small update.

Binged today, but I've decided to just try and eat only soups and stuff for as long as I can. Hopefully, I'll be able to do it until lacrosse starts.

Bah. My fingers are cold.

So I'm in Colorado today on my aunt's computer. We just had dinner, and I think I did pretty good, although I had fucking PIE at lunch. I swam in the pool, and tomorrow I will hopefully be able to get by with no food until lunch, when I'll only be with my cousin and she most likely won't give a shit if I don't eat too much.

Today was cool, I guess. Got on the plane on time, and the flight here was okay, and on the way from the airport to Steamboat we stopped at a huge outlet mall and had lunch and I bought these really great pink fuzzy boots for $10. Then I looked at all these cute skirts and pants and shit at various stores, and it was a little thinspiring. :D

This evening didn't end as well as I'd hoped, because one of my cousins just kept getting on my case again and again. They all do it, really, since I'm the youngest and they all sort of band together. I'm pretty used to being the odd one out.

All in all, though, it was a great day. Tomorrow we're eating dinner in, so it hopefully won't be too hard to do my restrictions. Sunday night, however, we're going to Outback Steakhouse, although I'll just get a salad and not eat most of it.

I'm excited about exercising tomorrow. I'm going to power walk/run for 30 minutes, and then maybe fool around with some of their other equipment in the fitness center, although I'll most likely just get into the pool.

It's nineish now, although more like 10 in Chicago, so I think I'll just go to bed.

Right now they're trying to guess what I'm doing up here on the computer. Ha, I told them it was blogging and they didn't believe me, so now they've decided it's eHarmony. Christ.

Mmm, gonna check my communities and try not to leave a link trail, but I don't know if I'll be able to do anything else than read.

Night, ladies!

I would post this in  my group, but I feel like I may be posting a bit much, so I'll put it here even though not many people at all will see it. :)

So. Today I didn't eat much, but felt like I went overboard a little with that extra piece of pizza bread. I made it up by not eating the rest of the day, but I can't exactly remember my calorie count. Oh well, it wasn't over 350, which is good.

My mom and I had a little chat today. She almost cried, I think. We were just talking about how my eating habits have taken a drastic change for the better, and said I could easily loose 30ish pounds by the summer. That's only 5 pounds a month, and I can definitely top that! 

Then she went on to say that since I'm only 5'2'', I could also get away with something as low as 110 lbs. M mother is a dietitian, so I believe her when she says I could get down that low and probably eat as much as I wanted (reasonably, that is) if I just exercised. So then I made a thing about how unhealthy that must be, and she was like, no it's okay. So, I think all is good on the whole, my mom not stopping me from loosing too much weight front.

Hooray!

So, went to the movies with B today because CN practically begged me. Saw Sweeny Todd, and had to pay to get in even though the creep said he could get us in for free. It was an okay movie, but that's not my biggest concern. I mean, how the fuck am I supposed to get the guy off my back now? Jesus Christ, I now know why he doesn't have a girlfriend. 

I guess I can give him another shot, because those weren't the best of instances, although I really regret giving him my phone number now.

Shit.

Okay, I don't want to talk about that anymore. I want to talk about something I like. Like B. I LOVE that girl. She's cute, and adorable, and totally bad ass, and funny and silly and knows how to have a good tiem, and we both love MSI.

I'd totally do her, and I'm a pretty straight person. ;D

I have to go to bed tomorrow, because I'm getting up so early to go to Colorado. Christ, EAR is coming so early, and being with her at 5 is gonna be SUCH a hootenanny.

I shouldn't be so uncharitable to my family members, but I'm cranky because of CN.

Food wise, I'm done eating for the rest of the night. Tomorrow, I'll eat half of whatever AF brings me on the plane, and then I'll pick at my lunch. Dinner is going to be a challenge, but I think that I'm up to it. :D

Goodnight, to whomever may be reading this.

S.<--Yum